To Mr Proton Saga.

当你说要暂时分开，让彼此有更大的空间冷静一下时，我已经泪流满面了。
我才发现，原来听到对方说分手时是那么痛苦，那么难过。。。
我想对你说声对不起。我知道我的对不起已经算不了什么了，不能弥补我对你说了那么重的伤害。我只能拼命的挣扎，心里一直在喊叫，但当你在电话说话时，我却一声也发不出。。。

从前一直埋怨你对我大呼小叫的我，当你斯文客气的对我说话时，我才发现我已经习惯你大声了。我不要你对我小声讲话！！我要你大大声！！！后来你说得不耐烦了，开始大声了，不知道你有没有听见我在哭声里笑。我那时很开心，真的开心，我听见我熟悉的你了。。。

之前一直说你以前多好多好，现在只想说你现在多好。至少不是像你要分开的样子，多不好！
原来当你改变时，我也跟着你改变。。。我要适应你的改变，在你有必要的时候帮助你。。。我爱你！我真的是比我想象中爱你！

到现在我还想问你，为什么你说分开时都没哭？？ 觉得我憎厌吗？报复我吗？我三番四次喊分手的时候我没哭，是因为我知道你不会答应。我知道我只是在发泄，我知道你会哄回我。。。
对不起，让你伤那么多次心。。。

现在不管我们还会不会在一起，我都想告诉你，我们要一起解决问题，我不会再乱喊分手，也不会再逼你做没有可能做的东西了。不要不要，有些东西要戒掉！不要不在一起...

I want nobody, nobody but YOU!

I missed the previous You, sweet, shy, caring and clean.

I missed the times we spent on motorcycles, we used to shout when talking to each other, the air kinda polluted, but the happiness are uncountable.

I missed the crazy things we did at the seaside, we didn't bothered to look if anyone was disturbed, just ran all the way to the other side bare footed.

I missed the things you've promised, not all fulfilled but yet, I don't mind waiting if you want me to.


Things changed...

We're not on motorcycles anymore, your tyres are small now, if we both ride on it, they will get a puncture... So we rode on cars...

The seaside we used to go is walled up... The shores have moved forward, and the bare opening that we ran across is no longer there... We never took off our shoes now and feel the sand...

We are not the same 'US'.

You've changed.


You are now loud. You have more things to think about, your home, your family, your money, your friends...

You are not the same YOU I loved. But I never minded. I continue loving you although you did mistakes. I supported you for all you've done. I advised you on the other side of your ideas. I never let you alone!

But yet, you've lied, and you lie again after all these times.
I've given you chances and am willing to give again if you asked.

Good luck to you.
and goodbye.

To my discipline teacher at school

You are a piece of shit! That's what you are! You made everyone's life miserable.
In school, you made the students' life miserable, most of the tutors' life miserable.
And you've made their lifes outside the school compound miserable!

I can't believe you're a Christian!
Christians don't judge people by their looks, the friends they made, and ONE wrong thing they did!
Christians don't gain satisfying-ness by screening them to the world, proud of herself when they were humiliated!
Christians do not nail someone and squeeze the deeds that they never did just to prove that they are worth to be nailed!

What God did, is to FORGIVE!
God did it out of LOVE! LOVE that you will never understand for the rest of your life!
He loves all of us! The sinners! We all SINNED!
Oh, we all sinned except YOU! heh

Your mouth is as big as a hippo.
No, BIGGER!
Your brains are as small as an ostrich.
Nono,you don't have one!
You hurt people more than helping them.
You made people lose confident than advising them.
You change people. But not to a good side, but by making them lost.
You don't give people chances that they should have.
You don't even listen to the answers given to your stupid questions!
You showed them what does THE END OF THE WORLD look like.
You stop every path they take. Even the path of life!

YOU SUCK!!!


You may sing 'graciously'.
But you are not an angel.
Please remember this.

If you ever come across this post or you so-called crap, I have no mean to hate you, but I don't LIKE you.
Just remember what God did for us.
And think of what you did to us.

Finals coming.

My finals are just around the corner... I am not supposed to go out, not supposed to go online...
In two weeks time, I am going to face the biggest challenge in my whole Foundation year. I hope I can concentrate on my studies and get what I want in return... Kamsa Hamnida...

And wish all my friends good luck and add oil!

A Day Out with My Gang...

We went out for a shopping trip last Wednesday, April fool. Me, and my C1 group - Swen, Mama, Ah Peng & Pu3...

It wasn't planned actually. I wanted to go home for a while and Swen had a 'Shopping' brainwave... And after deciding for half an hour whether to go or not after Maths, we changed and went straight away. And we skipped English.. [Shhh...]

Destination - AEON Jusco in Seberang Prai. My ruling area, so I have to drive the car.

We reached there in 35 minutes from Aimst and skimmed the place for a perfect restaurant.. We found one, Che-go Korean BBQ restaurant. I visited here before with Steph & Vig. We ordered a tableful of food and eat till our tummies are filled with Kimchi. It was a bad choice after all. All of us regret picking that crappy restaurant. Expensive, Ordinary, and absolutely not KOREAN!

But nevermind. And for now, SHOP TILL WE DROP time!!

We started with S n J and bought gifts for each other. It was a surprise actually. But I didn't give the gifts yet. Then shop after shop we went. & we all had a chance of being a bride. Childish though, but fun. =)

Among five of us, me and swen spent the most I think. We never miss anything. Until the others have to wait for us outside. We bought heels, masks, bra's, etc. The others bought some too. Peng & Swen got two pairs of shoes, and Pu3 got her shirt for Farewell in Padini.

There's a sale in Nicole and both mama and Pu3 got a blouse. But the fat salesgirl is irritating. While we were browsing the clothes, she keep folding them back before we got to choose. I felt sure she did it on purpose. She even told mama who asked to try, no trying more than two items. She said because it's sale item, and supposely no trying on weekdays, but she is kind and let her try one or two piece. What philosophy is this?? No trying on weekdays?? Bullshit.

Me and Swen spent a lot of time in TSC, Younghearts, Skinfood and they had to visit other shops to wait for us. Sorry guys. But it was a splendid time.